Thursday, March 18, 2010

Welcome to My Compound- The Kool-Aid is Delicious:

I am guilty.  Yes, I am guilty of luring people into the tangled web of my... neighborhood.  It's no secret that I have "freighbors" (friend/neighbors).  Looking back, I've often had freighbors, although I've never sought them out quite like I have since moving to this hood.

For example, in college, my roommates and I rented a house across from a "convent".  It wasn't a real convent, but it is where the sisters lived (the Catholic nuns).  Oh dear, I loved those sisters, as they were never the neighbors that called the cops when our parties reached "maximum" capacity.  Those nuns were quite gracious. 

When I lived in Gilmer, I often hung out with my very next door neighbor who was the epitome of a frenzied mom, but would graciously volunteer her husband to come kill the bat that was flying around my living room (yes really).  I also was two shakes of a puppy's tail away from two other friends.  I could walk to their houses, and often did, for a chat or a movie marathon or just cause I needed to get out of my own world for a bit.

And looking back... I am my most happy, my most rested, my most at home, when I'm surrounded by
freighbors.  And I can't have too many.  This is why I should become a real estate agent, but just for the 3 blocks surrounding my house. These are the houses I am passionate about selling.  

I suppose you've already guessed where this is headed? A house is for sale on my mini-street, but not for long if I have anything to do with it (sinister laughing in the background).  My freighbor Anna and I picked up the "For Sale" flier on a walk one evening (okay, Anna picked it up).  After looking at it, we both realized, it is a steal (pending an inspection that claims it's about to crumble to dust), even if new owners paid for a total overhaul... it would still be a good deal.  Hmmmmm.... and so then I think, "who do I know (who I like)  looking to purchase a home?"

I made a call.  That evening I was in true Realtor form with the friends I beckoned... sharing the pros of the neighborhood, and minimizing the cons (what cons?).   Detailing the safety of the street, the proximity to the lake, how all parents of single daughters rest well knowing their girl is in such a wonderful fairy tale wonderland of green belts, old oak trees, and squirrels frolicking adorably in the yards.  Duh... this is where Cinderella lives... we all just sing and dance around with our white mice (who incidentally sew ball gowns and wear little mini mice clothes... and don't leave droppings), waiting with our lovely co-Cinderellas (there are no wicked step sisters on this street) for our Prince to ride up the perfectly inclined and shady street to sweep us all away from our corporate jobs. After which, he will help us refinance these mortgages into joint ownership, because who would ever leave this heaven? And then we'll all have babies and play dates, and live happily ever after. Ahhhhhhh. 

Okay, so maybe that's a bit of an exaggeration, but there is no denying that when you live alone, it's nice to decompress with a good friend after a long day-- while still maintaining your own space (crucial). It's even nicer, when you can walk over in your house shoes (or no shoes) and your jammies.  It's nice to have someone to take a walk with, borrow a cup of sugar (or vodka--let's be real here), make you go vote (guilty), or help you rake up the dead cut grass crud in your yard so that it looks decent for your upcoming party.  A neighbor is really about belonging to a community, and I think that's something that our society has lost.  We are all so connected via cell phone, text, email, instant message, facebook, twitter, skype, and tin cans connected with yarn (no?)... and yet how often do you stand in your front yard visiting with your neighbor because you're both out pulling weeds, or have a cup of coffee on your neighbor's back patio?  I do (it's actually wine, not coffee-whatev).  At least twice a week.  And it's awesome.

So, yes, I  am completely guilty of trying to build a community of friends within spitting distance of my own front yard.  Sue me?  Why wouldn't I want to share this fantastic atmosphere with other people I like and care about?  I'd be a selfish wretched witch if I didn't mention it. 

So cheers to freighbors.  On our street, the Kool-Aid is delicious, and it contains no poisons, no psychedelics, and no ruffies.  Just good friendship, support and community.  And no homeowner's association dues. Score!

P.S.  Incidentally the house behind me (back door/ alley neighbor) is also on the market..  Just sayin....

P.S.S.  For my other friends who are notl ooking to buy... there is a sweet rental a block over.  Just mull it over, 'kay?

For more information on purchasing in the greatest neighborhood God ever created (or any DFW metroplex home), contact Tiffany Touchstone with the Touchstone Team (cause she's da' bomb).  And no this advertisement was in no way coerced or paid for by Miss Tiffany. She's earned this raving "shout out".  


Saturday, March 13, 2010

Grab Your Partner for the Virginia Reel!

There is a specific scene in my favorite movie of all time, Gone With the Wind, where Scarlett is supposed to be mourning the loss of her husband of two weeks.  However, much to Aunt Pitty-Pat's dismay, and the shock of the community,  she goes to a fund raising ball for the confederacy while in mourning.  Here she attempts to look mournful, wearing all black, but is discreetly tip tapping her feet behind the refreshment stand.  See the youtube clip.

Ahhhh... and this clip from the movie is exactly how I feel today.  Tip tapping my feet behind the refreshment stand while all my friends are out enjoying the most festive weekend of the year in Dallas-- St. Patty's Day.  Why am I home on my couch, wet hair, donning a "Kiss Me, I'm Irish" t-shirt, flip flops, and writing this blog, you ask?  I'm sick.  Grrrrrrr.  And it's the weirdest sick ever.  Just when I think I'm improving-WHAM!-- I get knocked flat down on my rump shaker again.  This has been going on since Monday. I finally went to the Dr. yesterday, where he seemed perplexed (but it could have been the dementia... he looked almost 90).  Dr. Knockin'-On-Deaths-Door prescribed a 3 day antibiotic pack (I like to think of it as a Z-pack on steroids), and laughingly told me to only kiss the boys I didn't like.  Huh?  I'm 34, and no longer in the habit of playing tonsil hockey with random strangers.  Not even on the weekend of the Irish.  

Back to the movie:
And just when you think Scarlett is going to explode from sitting on the sidelines,  Rhett Butler (the dashing devil) sweeps Scarlett up from behind that refreshment stand, and out onto the dance floor for the Virginia Reel!  Damned the community of old biddies and the confederacy. Ahhhhh... this is the stuff from which fairy tales are made.

So today of all days, where's my Rhett Butler?  I do feel a bit better as I field text messages from friends, "Are you coming out? Are you feeling better?"  Frustration and guilt.  Why? I called in sick to work.  Because I really am sick.  But would it be cheating if I just made a cameo at a couple of parties?  Just an hour. Scarlett did it, shouldn't I?  As long as I'm well by Monday?

Rhett... can you come pick me up in an hour?


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Breaking up the Band


I ran into an old "friend" (of the boy variety) a few weekends ago.  We connected.  We got caught up.  It was fun. 

I received an email from him a few days after our encounter apologizing for not touching base with me sooner.  I was perplexed by this email.  I showed the email to my frieghbor, as I scratched my head?

Her thoughts, "Maybe he's following up, because he thinks that you want him to follow up?"

Time Out-- for boys who read this blog.  See?  See, how the female mind works?  We will immediately read something into anything.

Alright, game on.

Hmmmm, okay?  I replied to the email... "No worries.  Hadn't even thought about it.  Have a good weekend."

I was then chastised by another male acquaintance, for not being nicer and replying, "Great to hear from you! Look forward to seeing you again" (please let me stroke your delicate male ego).   He insisted that the boy (my boy) had fretted and toiled over this 3 sentence email (in which he used no capitalization or punctuation-really?  fretted and toiled?  at least throw in a period for good measure if you really want to show you care), and I had proverbially slapped him in the face with my nonchalant reply (at least I used punctuation).

Huh? Really? I don't think so.   I replied to his email, while struggling to read very little into it. I've seen "He's Just Not That Into You"-- and read the book.   My reply was nice enough.  Really nice, in my opinion.

And then I looked at my freighbor and said, "Oh, maybe he thinks that the band is getting back together or he thinks that I want the band to get back together?" -- "we"- me and him-- being the hypothetical band.  And this is my favorite way to explain, reason, and justify a break-up or a reconnection.  And it also gives me an excuse to belabor old relationships.  All girl, I am.

Breaking up the band.

When a band breaks up, there is a reason. Your fans may die a little inside.  It will be painful, but in the long run it's typically better for all the band members to go their separate directions.  And good things usually follow.  Just look at Beyonce.  Destiny's Child was just holding her back from putting "a ring on it."

So while the band may break up, they may also occasionally come back together for a wicked jam session.  However, jam sessions do not mean that the band is getting back together.  Except in the case of the Eagles, but they are an exception (14 year hiatus is really a break-up, not a vacation).

So, being a girl, it would be natural for me to hold onto the idea that the band is getting back together.  But, I know, and you know, that the band is not getting back together. We've exchange two more emails, but I am firm-- the band IS-NOT-GETTING back together.  But at the same time I don't have a whole lot else going on, so here's to great jam sessions with old band members.  We may still make fantastic music, but it doesn't mean we need to cut a record (sorry CD-- or whatever musicians record on these days ).

Monday, March 1, 2010

Maybe It's a Blessing?

Today, I got the rug pulled out from under me.  November 1st, after three months of looking for a new job (horribly miserable with the current), I was internally transferred within my company.  This change was not what I was looking for, but having no other options (literally, I was considering bar tending at a strip club- truly), it turned in to be exactly what I didn't know I needed.  No break in my paycheck, more vacation time (score), and my benefits remain the same (yes).  Sigh... These past 4 months have been fantastic.  Sure, it's just a job.  I'm not incredibly passionate about what I'm doing, but I enjoy it and for the first time in years... I'm blissfully stress free.  Or so I thought. 

Good things that have happened:
1) Time-- I've had so much more time to spend with friends.  Time to focus on myself.  Time spent (not commuting) becoming more involved in new activities and making new friends.

2) New friends-- I adore the people I work with (including my boss).  I love these people.  I'm proud of where I work, and the team that I work with.


3) Less stress = more smiles-- In the past, my work always followed me home like the smell of dog poo on the bottom of my red patton leather pumps.  It lingered.  Lately (the past 4 months anyway), I don't think about work until the alarm goes off at 6:30 or 7:00 am, and then I still enjoy my shower and my getting ready process.  Before?  Not so much... just this dread feeling in the pit of my stomach.  This dread completely ruined the lovely steam and smelly goodness of my citrus minty bath products.

Those of you who know me personally or have read my blog a few times, know that I'm a very spiritual person.  I truly believe that God delivered me into this current position. It just all fell into place so easily and perfectly.  And because of this, I'm choosing to trust Him (the big G) now.

Alas, it came as quite a shock to me today when my boss called me into his office. 

Nervously, and after a bit of small talk I asked, "What's wrong? Am I in trouble?"  He chuckled awkwardly. The co-boss was in on the meeting.  This is never good. 

"No, of course not!"

And then he began the list of all the things I am doing well, how much the clients love me, and talking about all the "potential" I have.  But...  I seriously felt like he was breaking up with me (seriously). 

The BUT is always the hardest part. What was the BUT, you ask? He suggested (while delicately phrasing it so it seems to be my choice) a transfer to a different office.  A transfer?  I'm 1 mile from home here.  It doesn't get any better.  I love my co-workers, two of whom could tell by the look on my face when I walked out of his office, that something was wrong.  One immediately walked over to my desk (sweet boy) to make sure all was okay.  "Not really, but I can't talk now. I'll call you."  From the other sweet co-worker, a text soon after... "Is everything okay?"

No.  It's not okay.  Honestly, how could things get any better?  I work with friends.  I go home for lunch.  I have a commute that I could walk.  A transfer?  Why? What have I done?  I'm trying so hard! So, at 5:30 pm today, I felt as if I had lost my job.  And it felt personal.  You don't want me here, so you are transferring me somewhere else?  He had some compelling reasons, and I understand, and dare I say... agree?  But, it still felt very personal. 

"Is it because I don't speak Spanish?' Dammit, I knew I shouldn't have taken French in college.  Lots of good that's doing me now. 

And because this bomb was dropped at 5:30 pm... at 7:01 pm, I was still in my car,  in my driveway, crying and on the phone with my mom.  I couldn't get out of the car.  So, I just sat and cried. 

Now I'm better.  After a blissfully mindless evening of watching the "Bachelor Season Finale" with my freighbor, and breaking into my new box of  girl scout Samoa cookies (nothing heals the hurt like a Samoa), I'm choosing to accept this idea as a possibility.  A blessing... maybe? Maybe, it's just another door that will take me into great things and goodness and rainbows and fluffy white bunnies.  Or.... maybe it will leave me bitter enough to feel zero guilt when/if I find the perfect elementary Art teaching position, and suddenly turn in a two week notice. 

My mom, always the advocate of "stick-with-it-ness" made a suggestion.  "Well, maybe come May you should start actively looking for an art teaching position."  Maybe I will Mama, maybe I will.

Here's to change.  It's a bitch. 

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Amen, Amen, Amen....

A couple of months back, I had written about the Schumpert Hospital Cafeteria Menu Line in Shreveport Louisiana. If you missed this blog, you should click above, and get caught up.   It was at the end of this blog that one of my "commentators" brought it to may attention, that a local news station had done a story on my hospital menu line man.  I'm seriously like a groupie.  Go here to see the story: The Man behind the Menu Line.

Since discovering this story, I have become a fan of "George"on facebook... yes, really.  Calling the menu line continues to bring me great joy. However, George doesn't deliver Sunday's menu (he's a pastor, so I'm sure he's quite busy on Sundays)--- so make sure you call Monday through Friday! Here's the number again... 318-681-4564.  Again... make sure you call on a day when George is giving the menu.  You will be greeted by a bit of scripture or a catchy bible reference and a joyous, "Amen, Amen, Amen".

My favorite time to call is Friday.... because George usually says... "Thank the Lord it's Friday!  Amen, Amen, Amen.

I'm in good spirits after a great weekend! So, this is my little bloggy gift to my readers.... check out George's story.  It's sure to bring a smile to your face.  It always works for me!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Pulling PigTails, Hurt Feelings, and Jerks

Today I got my feelings hurt.  The remark cut so quickly, that I teared up, and I almost cried.  Yes, cried.  In front of a room of fellow trainees.  I don't recall having my feelings hurt like this since junior high school.  I'll be the first to admit, I'm a bit emotional.  Some may even consider me sensitive.  But, I honestly don't take things too personally- not usually.


To add insult to injury, the remark not only hurt me... it embarrassed me.  Again... in front of about 14 people.  Is there anything worse?  Yeah... 30 people. 

I've joked in the past about being "creative" smart.  But, I am joking about it.  It's my own self-depreciating humor, and secretly I think I'm really smart, so it's okay for me to make fun of me. Got it? However, when someone else publicly points out my neurological inadequacies, that's when the tears begin to brim along the edge of my eyes. Yes, I was brimming, but no drips. 

The remark was directed toward my spelling, or as was so blatantly pointed out.... the many errors in my spelling. The chart that I had written was hanging in the front of the classroom after our learning activity.  Isn't adult learning torture, fun?  And this is where it continues to hang, like the scarlet letter "A", for all to see my shame.  This because Mr. Jerk so obnoxiously pointed out that I should receive a 70% for spelling. Okay, dickhead, we aren't being graded on anything, but especially not spelling? And no one asked you?  I guess this is your rotten attempt at humor.  Didn't work.  (And unfortunately, I spent the rest of the afternoon scratching my head and wondering which words I had misspelled).

And here comes my secret insecurity, and also my rant! So I can't effing spell?  This is why Spell Check was created.  Wanna know what else?  I can't do math, simple math, in my head.  And thus I utilize a calculator.  Does this make me stupid?  Sub-par?  Not the sharpest knife in the drawer?  No---yes--- maybe?  Maybe I'm not a good (or even decent) speller, but at least I'm not a jerk!  Because you, my super rat friend, have the worst speech impediment that I've ever heard in an adult male.  Let's work on those "R's", 'kay?  But, would I ever make fun, or even mention it?  No (until now-- tit for tat, how 'bout that?), because that is cruel, and immature, and just plain mean.  And I... I... am an adult!

It is true that I march to the beat of a different drum, but I am not dumb. And yet, I felt this was what was insinuated. I'm a little "artsy-fartsy" as some like to call it.  I'm not smart in a Thomas Edison/ Albert Einstein sort of way.  I'm smart in a O'Keefe or Warhol sort of way.  Maybe even a Martha Stewart sort of way.  But, I am smart, dammit.  

And what I learned today is that this remark was not a kidding, pig tail pulling remark.  It was a remark to try to make the deliverer of  said remark feel better about his own short comings (and I'm sure there are many--yes, I'm alluding to the kind of shortcoming south of the equator). So--nyyyyyya! There. 

Now... I need you all to please comment nice things underneath this post, so I can return to my cloud of optimism and positivity.  I will, of course, return to class tomorrow unruffled, and the picture of poise and congeniality.  'Cause as my mama used to tell me, "sweetie, just kill him with kindness".  I think I will. 

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Love: Once Bitten, Twice Shy... My Perspective

In the essence of the holiday spirit, I will make a nod to Cupid.  Love? I think most of my life I have had a firm grasp of what love "is". My parents and grandparents are all great examples.  However, I think I've spent the majority of my twenties and ahem early thirties figuring out what love is not. I now understand and acknowledge that love is not an emotion.  It is an action.  And so I've compiled a bullet point list (don't you just love bullet points?):

Love Is NOT:

  • Refusing to allow me to lay on my own sofa when I'm sick (at least scoot over)
  • Eating the last _____ at my house when you know it is my favorite (of course I would let you have it if you asked... because I love you)
  • Questioning me about every person I spoke to when I'm out without you (yes I did speak to the waiter when I ordered at Chili's. No I will not point or pretend to be mute.)
  • Not "allowing" me to do things with certain friends or any friends
  • Constantly canceling the "BIG" plans... after I'm already packed and ready to go (and incidentally on the front porch... waiting... with my suitcase)
  • Wanting to know where I am every minute of every day
  • Criticizing and re-enacting the conversation I had at dinner with your co-worker
  • Saying "you're wearing that?" 
  • Sharing hurtful words about my friends with me
  • Judging my past and limiting my future
  • Putting your interests before mine more often than not
  • Always having the last word
  • Not supporting my goals, but fully expecting me to support yours
  • Lying...about anything, but especially stupid things 

Depressing right?  And my mama wonders why I'm still single?  The above is why I'm single.  The below is why I will not always be.  Because although I've spent many years learning what love is NOT, I've also had some first hand glimpses of what love looks like... the romantic variety.  Onward with the bullet points!

Love IS:

  • Telling me what you love about me and giving specifics
  • Planning something because you know I'll enjoy it
  • Giving me a hug when I need it the most
  • Rubbing my shoulders or my feet when I've had a hard day
  • Listening when there is nothing in it for you-- acting interested even though you're not
  • Going with me when I need the support
  • Accepting
  • Encouraging
  • Pretending you like my friend, even if she's getting on your last nerve
  • Talking shop with my Dad
  • Including me in your life 
  • Sharing the truth
  • Letting it go, even though we both know you're right
  • Leading me
  • Protecting me
Happy Valentine's Day!  Or as my friend Kristy refers to it... Happy Singles Awareness Day (notice the acronym is S.A.D.) And that's just sad, right? Cheers to love... the platonic kind, the romantic kind, the good kind.  What other kind is there?  XOXO
 

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